The time has come for me to reflect on the moments that I have been able to witness over the course of 4 months at college. I have been able to witness the good things and the worst of things. Some of these occurring of events, have been life learning and could also be lessons that I will be able to use further down my journey towards my life goals.

Some of these things could be taken both ways, one of the things that I have to deal with. while I have been here, is moving on and not jump, face first into relationships, that I think are great to begin with, or think that its a good thing to do in the moment, or whether or not to date the person, or one of my comical mistakes that I make, the one of leading a person on. The problem that is dominating me, isn't just hurting the people that are subject to this behavior of mine, its also me.

This mistake that I have taken part on, has taught me not to mess with friend's heads, but also I was playing with fire, or so called my emotions and theirs. This never had a good outcome, this outcome always messed up my feelings for the people that I really cared for. I played so many and I do want to find the courage to sort out what i am feeling and apologize to them. They deserve to be apologized to! They were so great to me, and I feel like i should apologize also the those who I had feelings for me and I am sorry that I ruined it for them.

I really need to figure out what I want in order to have a decent relationship, that I wont CHICKEN out on. That is not the type of relationship, I really want. I really want to be happy with things that have been going on lately. I feel like I should be honest more and be more open with things that are going on or feeling before i embark on my emotions.

The BEST thing that I have incountered here would be the way people are very willing to be my friends. They just jumped into friendships left and right. I really feel welcome here, even when I dont want to be here. I feel I can be myself and be able to have fun. Well not to much fun that is!!!

The other BEST thing is, the teachers really want me to thrive, they really want to help me grather up enough knowledge for me to learn and succeed here. They are very helpful towards me and always friendly towards me in any mood I could be in.

I LOVE PSC!!