Oooops

I have learned the BIGGEST mistake the only ones choose to make. I hate myself for last night. The crazyness that occured with just three sips of wiskey and two beers. I will NEVER allow this to occur. I have learned that you cant take control with yourself and being. That you will continue to say things that you dont mean. In the mean time I was doing this, I realized I lost the best two things I had going for me. Now as I sit here, I realized that I mess that all up and hurt those people in the process. I wish that I could turn back time and not do the stupid shit I did. I hope that in time they will forgive me..